Well it's that day again. It's my birthday. Whoopdeedoo. 27 years, that's like a really long time. Although it doesn't really seem that way, but when you see the number and reflect back to what all was going on in the year I was born that was quite some time ago.
Well this week didn't start off great so I knew it'd be a pretty downer Christmas and Birthday. I basically knew all my gifts, the only little suprises were what my sister got me. Nothing major though one of the birthday gifts that she got me is. I already know about it because it's a Floor ticket to see Bon Jovi in April and she's expecting me to get her a tshirt from the concert.
Besides the bummer of knowing my gifts and the such I've also been suffering with a major cold/sinus congestion. It really kicked me in the ass today, since today is a new day I guess I should say yesterday.
What also sucks is at the moment I can't seem to locate my ipod and my digital camera. Although I haven't used either of them in a while I was wanting to use the digital camera today to take a picture of me so you can see how crappy I look, also see the reason why I don't have a boyfriend.
Maybe once the new year starts and I start trying to achieve my resolutions I'll find my digital camera and ipod. I know it's strange to hear me talk about resolutions but I need some order or structure and I figure if I write it down I'll do it or I'll be kicking myself for not finishing out what I said I would do.
Well it's a little after midnight and I probably really should go to bed, because I'm probably not making much sense. Also I'm probably really messing up horribly with the gramar. So until next time, have a nice night/morning.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Busy Week
This past week I worked Avenue Q at the Music Hall Tuesday & Wednesday. Then went to see Garth Brooks on Thursday night. Then worked Avenue Q again Friday, Saturday (2 performances), and Sunday (2 performances). Then last night I went out to Topeka for a taping of Monday Night RAW. So to say I'm tired would be an understatement.
I think I haven't gone to bed in the last few days till at least 2 am if not later. I mean sometimes when you get home from things you are still amped from whatever you are doing if you try to go to sleep you can't because you are thinking about whatever you just got back from.
Oh I also forgot to mention on Wednesday, Friday and Saturday after I got finished working I had to wait about an hour or so for my sister. Why would I be waiting on my sister you might ask. Well she works at the Sprint Center doing Guest Services and the Music Hall is about 6 blocks away so we carpooled. Well she was working the Garth Brooks concerts so I had to wait till that got finished and they cleared the building.
Although it did give me some me time to myself and ended up finishing Chris Jericho's Book a Lion Tale : Around the World in Spandex, which I think I'll go in full depth about him in another post later. It's rather interesting watching people in downtown Kansas City late it at night. It also can be rather scary. You don't know how many people I saw either going through red lights or making left turns on a red light, or making turns at red lights where the sign clearly states no right turns on RED. What's wrong with people did they not read laws of the road? Hopefully one day those people will get tickets for their stupidity.
Speaking of stupidity. When a sign say No Food Or Drink Inside Theater and you have looked at it, It means No Food or Drink Inside Theater. Yes, that includes water. It's one thing if you didn't notice the sign but when you have looked at the sign and the sign is pratically everywhere, why or why would you try to bring it in? It's kind of like at KU where is on the doors it says GENERAL ENTRANCE and you have students coming over with there IDs trying to get in and you know they looked at the door. General Entrance means General People, not students.
Other than that at the musical things went smoothly. No real big problems that I had to deal with. Although I really don't understand after all the warnings they gave about Avenue Q Why there were still parents who were bringing their children to this is beyond me.
Now on to the Garth Brooks concert on Thursday. First of I want to talk about my seat. It was in 217 ROW 15. Now I've sat any many upper deck seats before but this was pretty scary. We were in the last row of the upper deck and the pitch on the upper deck was so steep I about pissed my pants. Other bad thing was our seats were in the middle of the freaking row. Now for all you who don't know back in 99 at Kemper Arena I went to a WWE PPV and was in the upper deck and witness Owen Hart fall to his death from the top of the building. So anytime I'm up high I'm weary, anytime I see people doing lighting or anything where they are hooked to something up high I get weary. Well these seats were higher or about the same height from where Owen fell at Kemper. Sprint Center may have less seats but it's a lot taller building. So once I sat in my seat I did not move from my seat.
I think I haven't gone to bed in the last few days till at least 2 am if not later. I mean sometimes when you get home from things you are still amped from whatever you are doing if you try to go to sleep you can't because you are thinking about whatever you just got back from.
Oh I also forgot to mention on Wednesday, Friday and Saturday after I got finished working I had to wait about an hour or so for my sister. Why would I be waiting on my sister you might ask. Well she works at the Sprint Center doing Guest Services and the Music Hall is about 6 blocks away so we carpooled. Well she was working the Garth Brooks concerts so I had to wait till that got finished and they cleared the building.
Although it did give me some me time to myself and ended up finishing Chris Jericho's Book a Lion Tale : Around the World in Spandex, which I think I'll go in full depth about him in another post later. It's rather interesting watching people in downtown Kansas City late it at night. It also can be rather scary. You don't know how many people I saw either going through red lights or making left turns on a red light, or making turns at red lights where the sign clearly states no right turns on RED. What's wrong with people did they not read laws of the road? Hopefully one day those people will get tickets for their stupidity.
Speaking of stupidity. When a sign say No Food Or Drink Inside Theater and you have looked at it, It means No Food or Drink Inside Theater. Yes, that includes water. It's one thing if you didn't notice the sign but when you have looked at the sign and the sign is pratically everywhere, why or why would you try to bring it in? It's kind of like at KU where is on the doors it says GENERAL ENTRANCE and you have students coming over with there IDs trying to get in and you know they looked at the door. General Entrance means General People, not students.
Other than that at the musical things went smoothly. No real big problems that I had to deal with. Although I really don't understand after all the warnings they gave about Avenue Q Why there were still parents who were bringing their children to this is beyond me.
Now on to the Garth Brooks concert on Thursday. First of I want to talk about my seat. It was in 217 ROW 15. Now I've sat any many upper deck seats before but this was pretty scary. We were in the last row of the upper deck and the pitch on the upper deck was so steep I about pissed my pants. Other bad thing was our seats were in the middle of the freaking row. Now for all you who don't know back in 99 at Kemper Arena I went to a WWE PPV and was in the upper deck and witness Owen Hart fall to his death from the top of the building. So anytime I'm up high I'm weary, anytime I see people doing lighting or anything where they are hooked to something up high I get weary. Well these seats were higher or about the same height from where Owen fell at Kemper. Sprint Center may have less seats but it's a lot taller building. So once I sat in my seat I did not move from my seat.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Halloween
Halloween was very uneventful. Only 26 trick or treaters this year, that's down from last year. I'm a little dissapointed I was hoping for a better turnout as for one of the rare times it was raining. Yes it was chilly but it wasn't raining. Also a lot of the trick or treaters were wee little ones, no high schoolers at all. Kids just don't turn out like they did when I was a kid.
Well I'll have the pictures and some video up sometime next week. I added a few things, but one I never really got to so I only had part of it up. I'm debating next year on whether I should bother with the decorations or not considering the count when down when the weather was actually half way decent. I mean last trick or treater came at 7:37 that's pretty early for the last trick or treater.
Most likely I'll decorate again, but I'd like a higher turnout. I guess when you live on a horseshoe that isn't right off a major roadway you probably wouldn't get too many. Maybe I'll spread the word more and make a website just dedicated to it.
The rising spirit and the floating skull head that was in the window seemed to be a real hit with the kids and even a few of the parents. Also once again quite a few kids and families posed with the Snoopy inflatable. I had thought about getting a poloroid and taking pictures for people and donate the money to harvesters or get the money to buy some can food for Harvesters. Harvesters is a great organization and more people should donate food and help them out.
Anyhow I hope all of your's Halloween was great. Have a nice night.
Well I'll have the pictures and some video up sometime next week. I added a few things, but one I never really got to so I only had part of it up. I'm debating next year on whether I should bother with the decorations or not considering the count when down when the weather was actually half way decent. I mean last trick or treater came at 7:37 that's pretty early for the last trick or treater.
Most likely I'll decorate again, but I'd like a higher turnout. I guess when you live on a horseshoe that isn't right off a major roadway you probably wouldn't get too many. Maybe I'll spread the word more and make a website just dedicated to it.
The rising spirit and the floating skull head that was in the window seemed to be a real hit with the kids and even a few of the parents. Also once again quite a few kids and families posed with the Snoopy inflatable. I had thought about getting a poloroid and taking pictures for people and donate the money to harvesters or get the money to buy some can food for Harvesters. Harvesters is a great organization and more people should donate food and help them out.
Anyhow I hope all of your's Halloween was great. Have a nice night.
Monday, September 24, 2007
It's FALL
Well I haven't written a blog in quite a while and well it's that time of year, it's Fall. What does fall mean, it means to most football, cooler weather, the changing color of leaves, sweaters, sweatshirts, but for me it means Halloween. Yes Halloween the greatest holiday of them all. A holiday full of fun, candy and scaring the living daylights out of people.
I've always enjoyed Halloween and the past couple of years I've decorated that yard. This year I got a ton more stuff to put out there. Last year I had tons of pumpkins. This year there will be tons of spiders, thanks in part to a great deal I got on a lighted spider I got after Halloween last year at the Spirit store that was located on Noland Road. I think I only paid like around 5 bucks or less for it. So it spawned this years idea of having big spiderwebs and gazillions of spiders all around.
I have to start putting together some of my decorations, and fixing and cleaning off others. I want to have most everything out by October 1st. So fill free to drive by or come over on Halloween. Hopefully the weather will be good and lots of trick or treaters come around. My intention is not to be too scary but to be fun.
Last year a group of children took pictures with the Airblown Snoopy. So hopefully they'll want to take pictures with one of my new items this year.
Besides the spiders I also have some new static props I'm cooking up. right now I'm working on my two other Pumpkin guys who will join my first pumpkin man in the graveyard. There will also be another new addition to the graveyard but I'm going to keep that underwraps till it arrives. Also depending on whether I can get the stuff to build it, besides the lights and the masks, there might be some creatures/maniacs observing everyone who passes by.
I've always enjoyed Halloween and the past couple of years I've decorated that yard. This year I got a ton more stuff to put out there. Last year I had tons of pumpkins. This year there will be tons of spiders, thanks in part to a great deal I got on a lighted spider I got after Halloween last year at the Spirit store that was located on Noland Road. I think I only paid like around 5 bucks or less for it. So it spawned this years idea of having big spiderwebs and gazillions of spiders all around.
I have to start putting together some of my decorations, and fixing and cleaning off others. I want to have most everything out by October 1st. So fill free to drive by or come over on Halloween. Hopefully the weather will be good and lots of trick or treaters come around. My intention is not to be too scary but to be fun.
Last year a group of children took pictures with the Airblown Snoopy. So hopefully they'll want to take pictures with one of my new items this year.
Besides the spiders I also have some new static props I'm cooking up. right now I'm working on my two other Pumpkin guys who will join my first pumpkin man in the graveyard. There will also be another new addition to the graveyard but I'm going to keep that underwraps till it arrives. Also depending on whether I can get the stuff to build it, besides the lights and the masks, there might be some creatures/maniacs observing everyone who passes by.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Something To Say
I haven't posted in a while, which seems to be the theme a lot in most of my posts in this blog. It suprises me in the recent weeks I haven't wanted to post or say anything, considering recent events.
The whole Benoit family trajedy stunned me and sickened me when the details of what went down came out. Shock, disbelief and disugst have run through my body for the past weeks because it. The night when it came out the family was found dead first I was stunned and very sad. Then little details came trickling out and I slowly and slowly got worried and then became deathly ill. Shoot I almost thought I was going to throw up.
See if you had met Benoit you would know that he was a man all about respect. I had the pleasure to meet him during Wrestlemania 2000 Weekend, along with Nancy Benoit. He was a very nice and respectful man and Nancy was nice and also very respectful. When I go to wrestling events or signings and etc I always am respectful unlike most who go like smother the wrestlers I tend to sit back and wait my turn. If I see them in public I don't bother them, and if I do go up to them I ask their permission and I never go up to them while they are eating, only after they are done if at all. Anyhow since Nancy was their, as a family member and not a performer I decided to not go up to her and bother her because she was their like the rest of the wrestlers wives/signifcant others and all. But I did smile to her and she smiled back and she just stood and watched as the fans admired her husband. A vast majority of the people at this meet and greet probably didn't even know who she was. I only saw like two or three guys go up to her and speak to her that were fans. Anyhow if you showed respect to him he gave you respect back. Just like most wrestlers will do.
Anyhow he has lost all the respect he got from me as a human being. If somehow they find out the events didn't occur like they said then I apologize, but it doesn't look as if that will happen. This man demanded respect ever so quietly yet he took two inocent people's lives. The thing that gets me the most is that he took the life of a child he adored. It makes no sense and probably never will. The one thing that might give us answers is the diary that so many have spoken about that Benoit had where he'd write letters to Eddie Guerrero, if they find that diary they might get some clues as to what was going on in Chris' mind.
But in all honesty we will never know what caused him to do what he did. We will always have specualation and even if Toxicology test comes back and say steriods or other drugs were in his system that doesn't mean they caused him to do those actions. People make choices and they must live with those choices. Steriods I'm not to sure can cause you to kill. They can cause you to get made, but to kill I find that highly unlikely. I mean there are other drugs such as LSD and meth that can cause you to kill. I remember a story from a police officer who talked about this guy they found in the Independence Center parking lot completely naked and blood all over him looking up at the parking lot light and apologizing. He was so messed up on drugs he didn't even realize he was naked and was bleeding so badly.
Anyhow I wish I could go back in time and would have actually gone up to Nancy and said something, because I found her to be a very good manager/valet who didn't get as much credit as many other females in the business. I also wish could go back and hit Chris Benoit in the head and said you could have had a V8 or something else along thos lines. Although none of those things probably would have changed anything, but it sure would have made me feel better.
So for all those friends who know I like wrestling but you yourself don't those are my thoughts about that. P.S. When any of those NEWs channels report anything and use Wilkpedia is a source of their information don't believe it. Also don't believe anyone in the news who talks like they know the ins and outs of wrestling because they haven't a clue and they always get their information from X wrestlers who have an ax to grind. If they haven't wrestled for the organization they are discussing in at least two years or aren't currently with the organization they are talking about they have no clue what's really going on and they aren't a good source of information.
The whole Benoit family trajedy stunned me and sickened me when the details of what went down came out. Shock, disbelief and disugst have run through my body for the past weeks because it. The night when it came out the family was found dead first I was stunned and very sad. Then little details came trickling out and I slowly and slowly got worried and then became deathly ill. Shoot I almost thought I was going to throw up.
See if you had met Benoit you would know that he was a man all about respect. I had the pleasure to meet him during Wrestlemania 2000 Weekend, along with Nancy Benoit. He was a very nice and respectful man and Nancy was nice and also very respectful. When I go to wrestling events or signings and etc I always am respectful unlike most who go like smother the wrestlers I tend to sit back and wait my turn. If I see them in public I don't bother them, and if I do go up to them I ask their permission and I never go up to them while they are eating, only after they are done if at all. Anyhow since Nancy was their, as a family member and not a performer I decided to not go up to her and bother her because she was their like the rest of the wrestlers wives/signifcant others and all. But I did smile to her and she smiled back and she just stood and watched as the fans admired her husband. A vast majority of the people at this meet and greet probably didn't even know who she was. I only saw like two or three guys go up to her and speak to her that were fans. Anyhow if you showed respect to him he gave you respect back. Just like most wrestlers will do.
Anyhow he has lost all the respect he got from me as a human being. If somehow they find out the events didn't occur like they said then I apologize, but it doesn't look as if that will happen. This man demanded respect ever so quietly yet he took two inocent people's lives. The thing that gets me the most is that he took the life of a child he adored. It makes no sense and probably never will. The one thing that might give us answers is the diary that so many have spoken about that Benoit had where he'd write letters to Eddie Guerrero, if they find that diary they might get some clues as to what was going on in Chris' mind.
But in all honesty we will never know what caused him to do what he did. We will always have specualation and even if Toxicology test comes back and say steriods or other drugs were in his system that doesn't mean they caused him to do those actions. People make choices and they must live with those choices. Steriods I'm not to sure can cause you to kill. They can cause you to get made, but to kill I find that highly unlikely. I mean there are other drugs such as LSD and meth that can cause you to kill. I remember a story from a police officer who talked about this guy they found in the Independence Center parking lot completely naked and blood all over him looking up at the parking lot light and apologizing. He was so messed up on drugs he didn't even realize he was naked and was bleeding so badly.
Anyhow I wish I could go back in time and would have actually gone up to Nancy and said something, because I found her to be a very good manager/valet who didn't get as much credit as many other females in the business. I also wish could go back and hit Chris Benoit in the head and said you could have had a V8 or something else along thos lines. Although none of those things probably would have changed anything, but it sure would have made me feel better.
So for all those friends who know I like wrestling but you yourself don't those are my thoughts about that. P.S. When any of those NEWs channels report anything and use Wilkpedia is a source of their information don't believe it. Also don't believe anyone in the news who talks like they know the ins and outs of wrestling because they haven't a clue and they always get their information from X wrestlers who have an ax to grind. If they haven't wrestled for the organization they are discussing in at least two years or aren't currently with the organization they are talking about they have no clue what's really going on and they aren't a good source of information.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Experimenting
Well it's been over one week on the Special K diet and I'm down three pounds. That's nice since the box says 6lbs in 2 weeks and I'm half way there. So we shall see if I end up losing 6lbs on this diet. Sometimes I feel I overdo the one meal you can eat like you normally do, which for me I don't always have that meal last.
Also this week decided to finally put the patch master stuff on the lawn. Hopefully this will fill in the spots. However, put three bags on the lawn and it still wasn't enough to do the whole area they needed some patch work. I guess we'll just have to wait two weeks to see if this fills in, before we get anymore.
Finally this coming Monday I'm going to a Smackdown/ECW house show. I haven't been to a house show since I was in high school. House shows usually have a different feel, because wrestling needs to take precedent over acting because that's basically all you are seeing since it's not on TV. Hopefully there will be some good matches. What would be really cool is if they had CM Punk have a match with RVD, but that's most likely not going to happen since they are both baby faces. But man would that be a pretty cool match.
Also this week decided to finally put the patch master stuff on the lawn. Hopefully this will fill in the spots. However, put three bags on the lawn and it still wasn't enough to do the whole area they needed some patch work. I guess we'll just have to wait two weeks to see if this fills in, before we get anymore.
Finally this coming Monday I'm going to a Smackdown/ECW house show. I haven't been to a house show since I was in high school. House shows usually have a different feel, because wrestling needs to take precedent over acting because that's basically all you are seeing since it's not on TV. Hopefully there will be some good matches. What would be really cool is if they had CM Punk have a match with RVD, but that's most likely not going to happen since they are both baby faces. But man would that be a pretty cool match.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Th Condemned
Yes, I went and paid to see The Condemned today. I thought it was a good movie. Who really cares what reviewers say. If you want action you aren't going for the best scripts , Vince McMahon although needs to stop putting his words and ideas in thse movie, or a meaningful message. If you want to see people beating each other up to death then this is the movie for you.
I liked the action and enjoyed it very much and you could see that this movie took elements from other movies. But that's ok, I go to movies to escape from this crazy world, not to get all crazy and disect movies like a vast majority of the people I went to college with would do. I don't get how you can enjoy the movie if you take little peices of it of apart and analyze them.
If you go into a movie thinking it's going to be crap, most likely it's going to be crap. If you go into a movie thinking it's going to be the best thing since slice bread, it's probably going to end up being crap. You need to go into a movie with the mindset of my life sucks and I want to escape into a whole new world for an hour and half or so and kick back.
One thing that I disliked about the movie was the abuse against women in this film. Yes it has a point, but this just oozes of Vince McMahon's doing. Yes I understand criminal tend to rape women and abuse them but with one of the guys who isn't even one of the criminals starts hitting up and degrading his supposed woman it's over kill.
Also since it seems that WWE films get a bad wrap, best thing to do would to not call it WWE films and use part of the old title of the company Titan and Call your film division Titan Entertainment. That way maybe the films would be given a bit of a better chance.
Steve Austin is a good actor. I remember seeing him in a few episodes of Nash Bridges and he was very good. He plays a rough and tough loveable badass very well. I do know he played a complete asshole badass in Adam Sandler's remake of The Longest Yard. Didn't really see but a little bit of his part in that movie so I can't really make too much of comment about that. But I enjoy Steve Austin as and actor or a wrestler. When it comes to hard hitting action there is nobody better bottom line.
I liked the action and enjoyed it very much and you could see that this movie took elements from other movies. But that's ok, I go to movies to escape from this crazy world, not to get all crazy and disect movies like a vast majority of the people I went to college with would do. I don't get how you can enjoy the movie if you take little peices of it of apart and analyze them.
If you go into a movie thinking it's going to be crap, most likely it's going to be crap. If you go into a movie thinking it's going to be the best thing since slice bread, it's probably going to end up being crap. You need to go into a movie with the mindset of my life sucks and I want to escape into a whole new world for an hour and half or so and kick back.
One thing that I disliked about the movie was the abuse against women in this film. Yes it has a point, but this just oozes of Vince McMahon's doing. Yes I understand criminal tend to rape women and abuse them but with one of the guys who isn't even one of the criminals starts hitting up and degrading his supposed woman it's over kill.
Also since it seems that WWE films get a bad wrap, best thing to do would to not call it WWE films and use part of the old title of the company Titan and Call your film division Titan Entertainment. That way maybe the films would be given a bit of a better chance.
Steve Austin is a good actor. I remember seeing him in a few episodes of Nash Bridges and he was very good. He plays a rough and tough loveable badass very well. I do know he played a complete asshole badass in Adam Sandler's remake of The Longest Yard. Didn't really see but a little bit of his part in that movie so I can't really make too much of comment about that. But I enjoy Steve Austin as and actor or a wrestler. When it comes to hard hitting action there is nobody better bottom line.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Special K Diet and Weather
Tomorrow I'm going to start the Special K diet. Yes I know it's a bit of a scam, but I like Special K cereal and the meal bars aren't too bad. I'll keep track of how much weight I lose sticking to the Special K diet for two weeks and see if it really works. Trust me I will stick to it.
Anyhow what about this weather? It looks like we might need Noah's ark. Just a few minutes ago there was hail coming down and I swear it was golf ball sized. Thank god I can put my car in the garage. Although with all this rain water might start to back up in there.
Oh in other news, we no longer get USA, which in turn means no Wrestling for me. I'm not happy at all. So hopefully within a month we will be getting Dish Network or Direct TV I'm leaning more towards Dish Network though. Also means I'll have nothing to do on Mondays for a while, how will I survive? I guess this should leave me more time to clean up the house, in particular my room. However, unlike sticking to the Special K diet I don't see me actually sticking to cleaning my room. I'll get started but then my mind will wonder off.
Anyhow what about this weather? It looks like we might need Noah's ark. Just a few minutes ago there was hail coming down and I swear it was golf ball sized. Thank god I can put my car in the garage. Although with all this rain water might start to back up in there.
Oh in other news, we no longer get USA, which in turn means no Wrestling for me. I'm not happy at all. So hopefully within a month we will be getting Dish Network or Direct TV I'm leaning more towards Dish Network though. Also means I'll have nothing to do on Mondays for a while, how will I survive? I guess this should leave me more time to clean up the house, in particular my room. However, unlike sticking to the Special K diet I don't see me actually sticking to cleaning my room. I'll get started but then my mind will wonder off.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Thinking About Choices In Life
Recently with people I know either getting engaged, married, having kids or other monumental life changing experiences I've looked at my life. Then thought about many questions as to why all these people I know have made these monumental choices and yet I still have yet to make any of those types of decisions at all.
Now a while back when I first was thinking about all this, in my mind I had a huge blog that would have been thought provoking, interesting and would let people maybe delve more into my life. Then I got to thinking probably not in my best interest to post that considering who may or not be reading this. However, I'm sure if I did post it maybe more people would actually think I'm interesting. Because I think most of my friends really don't find me all that interesting or fun to be around. They just think I'm a nice person who is educated and doesn't really judge anyones choices in life whether I agree or disagree with them.
Which then leads back to me thinking about the recent changes in many of my friends lives. I think it's great that people get engaged, get married and have babies. But for a person like me who has no real life outside of ocassionally working and helping out with the family. When any person I know who maybe I might ocassionally talk to or hang out gets engaged, married or has babies that means the less I will hear from them if at all. Which then leads to me being a very lonely bored person. Now I'm not going to blame my friends, but even when someone gets a boyfriend or girlfriend, friends seem to always get put on a book shelf so to speak only to be dusted off and used when they are need of something. Maybe it's just me that feels that way, but I think for the most part it is true. Unless you are the life of a party type friend you are often sitting waiting for someone to contact you because you figure if you contact them, like always they will be to busy.
Ever since I can remember I've been a pretty quiet, shy person who rarely makes friends and the few that I do are friends I usually know I can depend on. There have been several times I've tried to branch out and make friends with people who maybe I normally wouldn't be friends with, or just try to be a more open person and speak more so that maybe then I'd make more friends.
I tried in high school to this and it failed miserably especially after Junior year when the my close net of friends, basically the ones I'd tell just about everything to, stop being my friends, which then led to the good friends kind of drifting away. Which then was all mixed in with the inevitable high school drama. From crying in Orchestra class, to yellingat someone in the hallway, to crying in orchestra class, to chewing someone out at the mcdonalds drive thru, to crying in orchestra class yet again. Yes Orchestra class seemed to either to be my place to vent out or the place where the drama occured.
This leads me back to the thinking about the monumental choices friends have made recently. If I would have made different choices back in High School, or even college but I'm not going to go into detail or even rehash a little about that, would I now also be in the mix, and be able to relate to my friends, making these important life choices. Who knows, I guess god knows, but other than no one really knows what or how the choices they make in life will effect your future.
I guess really is you can't really judge or base your life off of others because they've lived and lead different lives than you have. No one is exactly the same and just because some people's monutmental life decisions happen way sooner then your's doesn't mean you will never have those events occur in your own life. But sometimes when so many people that you know are getting engaged, married, and having kids you feel left out like you aren't normal. But as the ketchup bottle commercial use to state, "All good things come to those who wait". Well I've been waiting for quite some and the future looks really really bleak.
Now a while back when I first was thinking about all this, in my mind I had a huge blog that would have been thought provoking, interesting and would let people maybe delve more into my life. Then I got to thinking probably not in my best interest to post that considering who may or not be reading this. However, I'm sure if I did post it maybe more people would actually think I'm interesting. Because I think most of my friends really don't find me all that interesting or fun to be around. They just think I'm a nice person who is educated and doesn't really judge anyones choices in life whether I agree or disagree with them.
Which then leads back to me thinking about the recent changes in many of my friends lives. I think it's great that people get engaged, get married and have babies. But for a person like me who has no real life outside of ocassionally working and helping out with the family. When any person I know who maybe I might ocassionally talk to or hang out gets engaged, married or has babies that means the less I will hear from them if at all. Which then leads to me being a very lonely bored person. Now I'm not going to blame my friends, but even when someone gets a boyfriend or girlfriend, friends seem to always get put on a book shelf so to speak only to be dusted off and used when they are need of something. Maybe it's just me that feels that way, but I think for the most part it is true. Unless you are the life of a party type friend you are often sitting waiting for someone to contact you because you figure if you contact them, like always they will be to busy.
Ever since I can remember I've been a pretty quiet, shy person who rarely makes friends and the few that I do are friends I usually know I can depend on. There have been several times I've tried to branch out and make friends with people who maybe I normally wouldn't be friends with, or just try to be a more open person and speak more so that maybe then I'd make more friends.
I tried in high school to this and it failed miserably especially after Junior year when the my close net of friends, basically the ones I'd tell just about everything to, stop being my friends, which then led to the good friends kind of drifting away. Which then was all mixed in with the inevitable high school drama. From crying in Orchestra class, to yellingat someone in the hallway, to crying in orchestra class, to chewing someone out at the mcdonalds drive thru, to crying in orchestra class yet again. Yes Orchestra class seemed to either to be my place to vent out or the place where the drama occured.
This leads me back to the thinking about the monumental choices friends have made recently. If I would have made different choices back in High School, or even college but I'm not going to go into detail or even rehash a little about that, would I now also be in the mix, and be able to relate to my friends, making these important life choices. Who knows, I guess god knows, but other than no one really knows what or how the choices they make in life will effect your future.
I guess really is you can't really judge or base your life off of others because they've lived and lead different lives than you have. No one is exactly the same and just because some people's monutmental life decisions happen way sooner then your's doesn't mean you will never have those events occur in your own life. But sometimes when so many people that you know are getting engaged, married, and having kids you feel left out like you aren't normal. But as the ketchup bottle commercial use to state, "All good things come to those who wait". Well I've been waiting for quite some and the future looks really really bleak.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Long Time No Talk
I decided to post today and when I clicked on her I had to update my blog. Shows how much I've neglected this blog.
Anyhow not much work lately so I've been severely bored. But between working out and selling and trading my trading cards has made my boredem not so bad.
Besides losing about 20 more pounds I have another mission/goal I have for this year. I'm going to earn up the money to go to Wrestlemania 24 next year. I'm going to get on of those travel packages and all so I've really got to start saving up now, because they start selling those in September. So if anyone would like to ship in to my Wrestlemania fund I'd greatly appreciate. I'll event take loose change and pennies. Eventually all that stuff adds up. Here is to me getting enough money saved up so I can go to Wrestlemania next year.
Speaking of wrestling. I was thinking back to when I was in 6th grade and I got some coins in cash in and sent in for this little pamphlet about how to become a professional wrestler or manager. I know I still have that pamphlet somewhere. Now don't get to thinking that I use to want to be a wrestler because no would ever pay me enough to do that. I just wanted to be a manager, because I just thought they had the coolest jobs they got out there and vast majority of the time get made fun of, bullied if you will, but they could say the craziest shit and set people off and get away with it.
Then again that same year I wrote down that my aspiration was to become a writer for the WWE magazine and I really doubt that will happen, since I ususally write from how I talk not the way you are suppose to when you are writing. You'd think I'd stop doing that since I did get a degree in Communications. One thing I can say is I probably could give you a way better story or interview of wrestlers than some of those who seem to write for the WWE magazine and WWE.com. It seems like wretlers are very edited or are just towing the corporate line, and I understand that to an extent but if you feel there are some other wrestlers who are getting a spot they really aren't deserving of you should be allowed to say it.
Maybe when I finally get to my spring cleaning I'll find that pamphlet again and copy it word for word so you all know what I read. Cause right now I don't remember what all was in it right off hand.
That's another thing there are a ton of idiots in the WWE and in there developmental system that don't know jack about the business. Why have people in the business who have no TRUE respect for it and are just there to pick up a paycheck. Yes I've heard why would I stay here to get injuries and all if I was just here to pick up a paycheck. Well probably because if you didn't you couldn't get a job anywhere else. These idiots need to be forced to watch every Wrestlemania, SummerSlam, Survivor Series and Royal Rumble that has ever happened. Because I can tell you for every one idiot in the WWE that just got in for their looks there is about 100 people who know everything there is to know about wrestling who would kill to be where they are at but they aren't because they don't have the look.
Enough about me ranting about WWE and their flaws. In a couple of weeks I'm going to be getting my haircut. Right now it's pretty long for me, but I think I'm going to get it cut even shorter than I've had in the past.
I think tonight I'm going to read Mick Foley's Hardcore Diaries. Hopefully this is a good book. I enjoy reading the wrestlers books for the backstage stories and all, but I'd like one that really stalks about the business. This one is suppose to talk a little bit about the backstage politics which should be interesting.
Anyhow not much work lately so I've been severely bored. But between working out and selling and trading my trading cards has made my boredem not so bad.
Besides losing about 20 more pounds I have another mission/goal I have for this year. I'm going to earn up the money to go to Wrestlemania 24 next year. I'm going to get on of those travel packages and all so I've really got to start saving up now, because they start selling those in September. So if anyone would like to ship in to my Wrestlemania fund I'd greatly appreciate. I'll event take loose change and pennies. Eventually all that stuff adds up. Here is to me getting enough money saved up so I can go to Wrestlemania next year.
Speaking of wrestling. I was thinking back to when I was in 6th grade and I got some coins in cash in and sent in for this little pamphlet about how to become a professional wrestler or manager. I know I still have that pamphlet somewhere. Now don't get to thinking that I use to want to be a wrestler because no would ever pay me enough to do that. I just wanted to be a manager, because I just thought they had the coolest jobs they got out there and vast majority of the time get made fun of, bullied if you will, but they could say the craziest shit and set people off and get away with it.
Then again that same year I wrote down that my aspiration was to become a writer for the WWE magazine and I really doubt that will happen, since I ususally write from how I talk not the way you are suppose to when you are writing. You'd think I'd stop doing that since I did get a degree in Communications. One thing I can say is I probably could give you a way better story or interview of wrestlers than some of those who seem to write for the WWE magazine and WWE.com. It seems like wretlers are very edited or are just towing the corporate line, and I understand that to an extent but if you feel there are some other wrestlers who are getting a spot they really aren't deserving of you should be allowed to say it.
Maybe when I finally get to my spring cleaning I'll find that pamphlet again and copy it word for word so you all know what I read. Cause right now I don't remember what all was in it right off hand.
That's another thing there are a ton of idiots in the WWE and in there developmental system that don't know jack about the business. Why have people in the business who have no TRUE respect for it and are just there to pick up a paycheck. Yes I've heard why would I stay here to get injuries and all if I was just here to pick up a paycheck. Well probably because if you didn't you couldn't get a job anywhere else. These idiots need to be forced to watch every Wrestlemania, SummerSlam, Survivor Series and Royal Rumble that has ever happened. Because I can tell you for every one idiot in the WWE that just got in for their looks there is about 100 people who know everything there is to know about wrestling who would kill to be where they are at but they aren't because they don't have the look.
Enough about me ranting about WWE and their flaws. In a couple of weeks I'm going to be getting my haircut. Right now it's pretty long for me, but I think I'm going to get it cut even shorter than I've had in the past.I think tonight I'm going to read Mick Foley's Hardcore Diaries. Hopefully this is a good book. I enjoy reading the wrestlers books for the backstage stories and all, but I'd like one that really stalks about the business. This one is suppose to talk a little bit about the backstage politics which should be interesting.
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