Ok let's start from the begining. My roommate felt nauseated this morning so that i was seeing bad signs popping up. Then the weather was over cast and dreary another thing is usually a bad sign to me. The other bad sign was that we got lost on Sunset BLVD map quest told us to turn right instead of left. So we were lost for a while went up and down two times in a row. Then finally we stopped at an ARCO gas station and dude told us we were 12 miles away and needed to keep going to Fairfax. Well it was way passed Fairfax. We saw many things I never thought I'd see before, like KTLA studio, Nickoloden studio, and the CNN, and the Palladium. Man there was millions of studios we saw. Then finally we got to the Tower Records line wasn't long and it was like 10 something am. so we went over to the book shop. Didn't find anything there then looked at magazines. Didn't find anything, but the place had the largest smut magazine selection I'd ever seen. Man jack off city for people probably of all sexual preferences. Rather interesting since I'm not use to seeing a whole section of porn magazines. So Then we went back to Tower and I bought the Buffy Musical CD and No Doubt Maxium which is an interview CD, I figured I'd go buy the No Doubt thing too because I love No Doubt and I hadn't been able to find that anywhere. So then we got in the line and sat for a while then the moved the line to the dumpsters. Then we sat down again and tried studying some flash cards for our various classes, my roomies art, my spanish. I was too distracted then two friends from school came andthey got into line with us. The one was hungry so I went with her to get some subway. It was good I had a ham with cheese and lettuce. It was good. But I figured I'd get some Mountain Dew figuring it would make me act crazy enough to actually say something to Amber, instead of just looking and being in shock. So we wait in line then Joss Whedon drives and pulls into the sparking space I'm right in front of. Nice BMW and the liscense plate was awesome. Then eventually the line starts moving and I'm doing and singing weird and wacky shit to my roomie and my two new acquaintances from school. They think I'm freaking hilarious and loved my shirt that said "I've had A BAD WEEK MAY I HAVE A HUG" and then the back said which some people didn't get to see because of my backpack but it said "I'm in $40,000 debt due to Chapman University" Which they understood totally because they go there also. I swear our school likes to rape us of our money. But the closer we got the more like i felt one either I'm going to pass out, two I'm going to throw up or three I was going to die because my side pains had been starting up again. Caffenine BAD BAD BAD. We finally get into the store in the line and I'm like freaking. And Megan says she is so going to pass out when she gets up to Amber. She's freaking going insane and is going to flip. I started taking pictures. Then I guess I pissed off Michelle I forgot her last name , but she plays Dawn cause I kind of just said here. I didn't mean too but I was feeling rather not well and extremely nervous. After she signed the CD cover I shook her hand and said nice to meet you. The Joss I got him to sign my CD cover and I put out my hand and said nice to me you and he was like wow. Don't know if the wow was for my awesome hand shake, the fact i didn't give him shit for killing of my favorite character or for the blue finger nail polish i was wearing. I should of asked, but too nervous too because who was next. Bingo AMBER. I go to hand my CD cover and she already started reading my shirt and she was like aaaah She signed my CD cover and was like you sure can have a hug and i was like yeah and then i said can i get a pic with you too and she's like sure but i better get a hug first i was like yeah and my roomie was laughing when Amber was first started reading my shirt. It's all about getting attention and being memorable when you want to get noticed by someone famous. So I was dissing on my roomie cause she was having problems with the camera, while I had my arm around Amber who was bending over the table to pose for the picture. Man the smile on my face was huge. hahaha. Then I was like thanks, she said your welcome. Then she started talking to my roomie and said you must have waited a long time and my roomie was like yeah and said thanks. Then my roomie came to me and said the letter and i was like shit then i tried to get it back to her, bodyguard said you need to leave and i was like i forgot to give her this letter and then i just tossed over by her and she was signing Megan's CD cover during this and she looked over and said for me ahh sweet and she smile and blew me a kiss goodbye. Man the expression on my face must have been something. Because Megan was cracking up and so was my roomie. I should have stayed over there longer because my other friend Christina stayed and talked to her for two minutes. I wish I could have taken more pictures of Amber, especially when she blew me the kiss but I wasn't expecting that at all. Well I hope she reads my letter and maybe I'll get a response. Now that would be cool, if not oh well guess I just have to live with that. Also she was like oh cool your finger nails match your tshirt that's awesome. Too bad being the loser I am all I said was yeah and yeah and yeah and yeah and just smiled, I had like so many things to say and all but for some reason I just couldn't say anything I was so in like awe. There is more to it than that too, but I'm not going to dwell on that too much. This will probably be the only time I'll ever meet her. But it truely made up for the bad week, month, year I was having. She truly made me happy and I really appreciate it. She probably couldn't even comprehend how much it meant to me that she said as much as she said too me. Also how much blowing a kiss to me meant to me either. I was like completely happy. I guess now the past is the past and I'm going to try to start a new. Forget about past and just remember everything from that moment in time and after. I gave her the web address to this site, and if she actually made it through the letter that I know was depressing and saw the website and actually came that'd be cool. It truly was a great day for me, maybe all the pain I've been through will slowly disapear. Amber Benson is the greatest.