THE AMBER IS THE COLOR OF YOU ENERGY PROJECT
Originally posted late Saturday night but I figured I'd repost it again because I just freaking feel like it. Plus I didn't use the title last time.
Ok let's start from the begining. My roommate felt nauseated this morning so that i was seeing bad signs popping up. Then the weather was over cast and dreary another thing is usually a bad sign to me. The other bad sign was that we got lost on Sunset BLVD map quest told us to turn right instead of left. So we were lost for a while went up and down two times in a row. Then finally we stopped at an ARCO gas station and dude told us we were 12 miles away and needed to keep going to Fairfax. Well it was way passed Fairfax. We saw many things I never thought I'd see before, like KTLA studio, Nickoloden studio, and the CNN, and the Palladium. Man there was millions of studios we saw. Then finally we got to the Tower Records line wasn't long and it was like 10 something am. so we went over to the book shop. Didn't find anything there then looked at magazines. Didn't find anything, but the place had the largest smut magazine selection I'd ever seen. Man jack off city for people probably of all sexual preferences. Rather interesting since I'm not use to seeing a whole section of porn magazines.
So Then we went back to Tower and I bought the Buffy Musical CD and No Doubt Maxium which is an interview CD, I figured I'd go buy the No Doubt thing too because I love No Doubt and I hadn't been able to find that anywhere. So then we got in the line and sat for a while then the moved the line to the dumpsters. Then we sat down again and tried studying some flash cards for our various classes, my roomies art, my spanish. I was too distracted then two friends from school came andthey got into line with us. The one was hungry so I went with her to get some subway. It was good I had a ham with cheese and lettuce. It was good. But I figured I'd get some Mountain Dew figuring it would make me act crazy enough to actually say something to Amber, instead of just looking and being in shock. So we wait in line then Joss Whedon drives and pulls into the sparking space I'm right in front of. Nice BMW and the liscense plate was awesome. Then eventually the line starts moving and I'm doing and singing weird and wacky shit to my roomie and my two new acquaintances from school. They think I'm freaking hilarious and loved my shirt that said "I've had A BAD WEEK MAY I HAVE A HUG" and then the back said which some people didn't get to see because of my backpack but it said "I'm in $40,000 debt due to Chapman University" Which they understood totally because they go there also. I swear our school likes to rape us of our money. But the closer we got the more like i felt one either I'm going to pass out, two I'm going to throw up or three I was going to die because my side pains had been starting up again. Caffenine BAD BAD BAD. We finally get into the store in the line and I'm like freaking. And Megan says she is so going to pass out when she gets up to Amber. She's freaking going insane and is going to flip. I started taking pictures. Then I guess I pissed off Michelle I forgot her last name , but she plays Dawn cause I kind of just said here. I didn't mean too but I was feeling rather not well and extremely nervous. After she signed the CD cover I shook her hand and said nice to meet you. The Joss I got him to sign my CD cover and I put out my hand and said nice to me you and he was like wow. Don't know if the wow was for my awesome hand shake, the fact i didn't give him shit for killing of my favorite character or for the blue finger nail polish i was wearing. I should of asked, but too nervous too because who was next. Bingo AMBER. I go to hand my CD cover and she already started reading my shirt and she was like aaaah She signed my CD cover and was like you sure can have a hug and i was like yeah and then i said can i get a pic with you too and she's like sure but i better get a hug first i was like yeah and my roomie was laughing when Amber was first started reading my shirt. It's all about getting attention and being memorable when you want to get noticed by someone famous. So I was dissing on my roomie cause she was having problems with the camera, while I had my arm around Amber who was bending over the table to pose for the picture. Man the smile on my face was huge. hahaha. Then I was like thanks, she said your welcome. Then she started talking to my roomie and said you must have waited a long time and my roomie was like yeah and said thanks. Then my roomie came to me and said the letter and i was like shit then i tried to get it back to her, bodyguard said you need to leave and i was like i forgot to give her this letter and then i just tossed over by her and she was signing Megan's CD cover during this and she looked over and said for me ahh sweet and she smile and blew me a kiss goodbye. Man the expression on my face must have been something. Because Megan was cracking up and so was my roomie. I should have stayed over there longer because my other friend Christina stayed and talked to her for two minutes. I wish I could have taken more pictures of Amber, especially when she blew me the kiss but I wasn't expecting that at all. Well I hope she reads my letter and maybe I'll get a response. Now that would be cool, if not oh well guess I just have to live with that. Also she was like oh cool your finger nails match your tshirt that's awesome. Too bad being the loser I am all I said was yeah and yeah and yeah and yeah and just smiled, I had like so many things to say and all but for some reason I just couldn't say anything I was so in like awe. There is more to it than that too, but I'm not going to dwell on that too much. This will probably be the only time I'll ever meet her. But it truely made up for the bad week, month, year I was having. She truly made me happy and I really appreciate it. She probably couldn't even comprehend how much it meant to me that she said as much as she said too me. Also how much blowing a kiss to me meant to me either. I was like completely happy. I guess now the past is the past and I'm going to try to start a new. Forget about past and just remember everything from that moment in time and after. I gave her the web address to this site, and if she actually made it through the letter that I know was depressing and saw the website and actually came that'd be cool. It truly was a great day for me, maybe all the pain I've been through will slowly disapear. Amber Benson is the greatest.
Monday, September 30, 2002
I need to add another link to my blog That's Christina's website . She's a super huge Buffy Fan, her like computer is like all buffied. I haven't seen it yet, but I've heard. She even has the pilot episode of Buffy with the ugly looking Willow on there. I'm looking forward to seeing that. Hahaha. But check out her site it's cool. Her top 10 list are the best.
Sunday, September 29, 2002
Was looking through some blogs because I was bored saw this on one decided I'd do it too, because I'm that damn bored, and the high of happiness I had yesterday has gone away. Back to reality..... ARGH!!!!
1) Full Name: Briann Noel Goin
2) Name Backwards: Niog Leon Nnairb
3) Were you named after anyone?: yep some actress, but dad didn't spell it like she did.
4) Does your name mean anything?: no clue
5) Nick Name(s): ok man this is a long list. Bri, DaBri, Blue Pooh, and Shiznit Pimp(interesting nickname huh?)
6) Screen Name(s): too many to list but I got BeaconStreetND,SkaManiac36,and DaBri1999
7) Date Of Birth: December 27, 1980
8) Place of Birth: not quite sure exactly but probably somewhere in the Kansas City Metropolitan area in Missouri
9) Nationality: American- True Red White and Blue through and through I claim no other nationalities because I don't live there
10) Current Location: Orange, California @ Chapman University
11) Sign: Capricorn
12) Religion: Methodist (Christian)
13) Height: 5'6-5'7
14) Weight: not answering that and nor should anyone
15) Shoe Size: we talking guys sizes or gals sizes and which kind of shoe they are all different you know. I can wear a 6.5- 8 in shoes it just depends
16) Hair color: Brown
17) Eye color: Blue
18) What do you look like?: someone who just throws on whatever, and i always look tired or high, but i don't do drugs, damn contacts when you don't get enought sleep
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: RIGHT! but I can go either way, just the left isn't as good though.
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: wouldn't everyone like to know that. You tell me since I haven't done anything
22) Best friend(s): none :(
23) Best friend you trust more than anyone:I can Trust No One anymore
24) Best friends {your sex}: None
25) Best friends of the Opposite Sex: none
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: ugh, no one once again
28) Crush: lots of people who probably would have nothing to do with me, maybe I'm exageratting a person not people, but that's for me to know and you to find out
29) Parent(s): Virginia and Dad is no longer with us
30) Worst Enemy: LIARS
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): none cause they all lie
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): none cause most of them i talked online to have lied to me too
33) Funniest friend: man there is a lot of questions about friends and i don't have any
34) Craziest friend: NA
35) Advice Friend: NA
36) Loudest Friend:NA
37) Person you cry with: I cry alone
Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: yes, one
39) Any brothers: NO
40) Any pets: no dog died last year while I was still at school
41) A Disease: not one that i know of
42) A Pager: no
43) A Personal phone line: nope
44) A Cell phone: yep and it's 714 and i'm not telling the rest unless you really are going to call
45) A Lava lamp: yep at home in Missouri it's blue and silver
46) A Pool or hot tub: Hot tub
47) A Car: 1996 Black Cheverolet Cavalier
Describe Your...
48) Personality: never content, often depressed, but hides it with humor or stupidity
49) Driving: I drive a lot. When I'm bored, depressed or sad. I listen to the music up real loud and go get lost in the city and I always find my way back home.
50) Car or one you want: II got a car, but I'm wanting to get the Pontiac Vibe, with the six speaker system, cause I got to have the good tunes rocking in my car, Pontiacs always have great bass even in there basic sound systems. I'd like to have it in a blue, because that's my fav color if not black is cool too since that's the color of my car I have now. Just wish I had money to get it
51) Room: At home it's a complete mess you can't see the flour. The dorm well it's unorganized but not quite a mess, but stuff is here and there.
52) Whats missing?: probably my keys
53) School:Chapman University
54) Bed: at home a huge serta matress, dorm it's an ok long bed
55) Relationship with your parent(s): ok i guess
Do You...
56) Believe in yourself: not really since no one else believes in me
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? not really
58) Consider yourself a good listener: yes that's what i do best i listen to everything, especially other people's conversations
59) Consider yourself a good friend: Well I'm a good friend, probably even super, because I even try to be good to people who treat me like a fucking peice of shit and like I'm a fucking joke
60) Get Along with your parents: Yes
61) Save your e-mail conversations: depends on who it is from._.
62) Pray: A lot lately
63) Believe in reincarnation: YES I swear I was a taxicab driver in a past life
64) Like to make fun of people: Haha it's a habit, but it's to those people who don't like me and do crap that is just too easy to pass up the opportunity to do so
65) Like to talk on the phone: maybe, I don't like calling people, I'm too shy so ... yeah but if the person i was talking to is really cool and had interesting stuff to talk about yes then.
Do You...
67) Like to drive: YEPPERS
68) Get motion sickness: When on a boat
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: no
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: no, hello they are called chicken fingers you eat them with your fingers
71) Dream in color: YEAH
72) Type with your fingers on home row: dang i forgot what that is, and I should know
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: yes because I've been so sad and depressed lately and not feeling well
74) Right next to you: my stuffed animal Puggy Patch, pillows, the Buffy Musical CD, the mouse, and the wall and some music pinups
75) On the walls of your room: to the left of me now is various pinups of Linkin Park Staind, Alien Ant Farm, POD, Surgar Ray, Blink 182, behind me right now Big Blink 182 poster, Linkin Park, Then System of a Down Poster, Then below those No Doubt pinups, Then my smiley face calender. Then by the bathroom hooks with stuff on them none of which is mind. The on the closets are posters. My closet has Alien Ant Farm and Eve 6 and Cold, Then a Hook thingy then a Production This Way Makeup Hair/ Make up Wardrobe thing i stole from the Hoobstank video shoot and Then and Ultimate Fakebook poster, Then the wall to the right bulletin board of my rommies and tons of pictures all around it them my big huge bulletin board leaning against the wall with some pics.. That's about all that's on the walls
76) On your mouse pad: no mouse pad
77) Your dream car: 69 Ford Mustang, 69 Pontiac Firebird
78) Your dream date: hmm lets see with someone just going and doing whatever, got to have some music in there, but nothing really fancy
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Jamacia
80) Your dream husband/wife: don't know
81) Your bedtime: whenever
82) Under your bed: shoes and towels
83) The single most important question: When will this all be over with?
84) Your bad time of the day: soo many times through out the day
85) Your worst fear(s): dying and being alone , which looks like will happen soon
86) The weather like: not too sunny but no overcast
87) The time? 2:39 pm
88) The date? 9.29.02
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: too many, and don't want to reveal anything
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: don't know
91) Your theme song: Right now I'd have to say "Remember Me" By Hoobastank
92) The hardest thing about growing up: laundry, money, dealing with people, health
93) Your funniest experience: So Many things are amusing to me I can't remember the funniest experience
94) Your scariest moment: When a dude cut me off back home after I was done with classes and trying to get home on 291 and I swirved to the side of the road where they just put oil down, and my car kept going back and forth and then lost control of the car it spun and it the end of a cement truck and spun back across over the lanes into the medium and stopped right before my car went to the other side of 291 that was going the opposite direction and my front in was munched up and windows were busted and while i was spinning i was just saying god please don't let a car hit me, and not a car did. Thank god.
95) The silliest thing you've said: i've said many silly things, just ask my roomie.
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: nothing
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friends: nothing
98) The worst feeling in the world: being alone and feeling like shit and that everyone thinks you are a fucking joke
99) The best feeling in the world: I guess that would be feeling like someone actually cares about you and wants to listen to what you have to say and thinks you are special or are important
1) Full Name: Briann Noel Goin
2) Name Backwards: Niog Leon Nnairb
3) Were you named after anyone?: yep some actress, but dad didn't spell it like she did.
4) Does your name mean anything?: no clue
5) Nick Name(s): ok man this is a long list. Bri, DaBri, Blue Pooh, and Shiznit Pimp(interesting nickname huh?)
6) Screen Name(s): too many to list but I got BeaconStreetND,SkaManiac36,and DaBri1999
7) Date Of Birth: December 27, 1980
8) Place of Birth: not quite sure exactly but probably somewhere in the Kansas City Metropolitan area in Missouri
9) Nationality: American- True Red White and Blue through and through I claim no other nationalities because I don't live there
10) Current Location: Orange, California @ Chapman University
11) Sign: Capricorn
12) Religion: Methodist (Christian)
13) Height: 5'6-5'7
14) Weight: not answering that and nor should anyone
15) Shoe Size: we talking guys sizes or gals sizes and which kind of shoe they are all different you know. I can wear a 6.5- 8 in shoes it just depends
16) Hair color: Brown
17) Eye color: Blue
18) What do you look like?: someone who just throws on whatever, and i always look tired or high, but i don't do drugs, damn contacts when you don't get enought sleep
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: RIGHT! but I can go either way, just the left isn't as good though.
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: wouldn't everyone like to know that. You tell me since I haven't done anything
22) Best friend(s): none :(
23) Best friend you trust more than anyone:I can Trust No One anymore
24) Best friends {your sex}: None
25) Best friends of the Opposite Sex: none
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: ugh, no one once again
28) Crush: lots of people who probably would have nothing to do with me, maybe I'm exageratting a person not people, but that's for me to know and you to find out
29) Parent(s): Virginia and Dad is no longer with us
30) Worst Enemy: LIARS
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): none cause they all lie
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): none cause most of them i talked online to have lied to me too
33) Funniest friend: man there is a lot of questions about friends and i don't have any
34) Craziest friend: NA
35) Advice Friend: NA
36) Loudest Friend:NA
37) Person you cry with: I cry alone
Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: yes, one
39) Any brothers: NO
40) Any pets: no dog died last year while I was still at school
41) A Disease: not one that i know of
42) A Pager: no
43) A Personal phone line: nope
44) A Cell phone: yep and it's 714 and i'm not telling the rest unless you really are going to call
45) A Lava lamp: yep at home in Missouri it's blue and silver
46) A Pool or hot tub: Hot tub
47) A Car: 1996 Black Cheverolet Cavalier
Describe Your...
48) Personality: never content, often depressed, but hides it with humor or stupidity
49) Driving: I drive a lot. When I'm bored, depressed or sad. I listen to the music up real loud and go get lost in the city and I always find my way back home.
50) Car or one you want: II got a car, but I'm wanting to get the Pontiac Vibe, with the six speaker system, cause I got to have the good tunes rocking in my car, Pontiacs always have great bass even in there basic sound systems. I'd like to have it in a blue, because that's my fav color if not black is cool too since that's the color of my car I have now. Just wish I had money to get it
51) Room: At home it's a complete mess you can't see the flour. The dorm well it's unorganized but not quite a mess, but stuff is here and there.
52) Whats missing?: probably my keys
53) School:Chapman University
54) Bed: at home a huge serta matress, dorm it's an ok long bed
55) Relationship with your parent(s): ok i guess
Do You...
56) Believe in yourself: not really since no one else believes in me
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? not really
58) Consider yourself a good listener: yes that's what i do best i listen to everything, especially other people's conversations
59) Consider yourself a good friend: Well I'm a good friend, probably even super, because I even try to be good to people who treat me like a fucking peice of shit and like I'm a fucking joke
60) Get Along with your parents: Yes
61) Save your e-mail conversations: depends on who it is from._.
62) Pray: A lot lately
63) Believe in reincarnation: YES I swear I was a taxicab driver in a past life
64) Like to make fun of people: Haha it's a habit, but it's to those people who don't like me and do crap that is just too easy to pass up the opportunity to do so
65) Like to talk on the phone: maybe, I don't like calling people, I'm too shy so ... yeah but if the person i was talking to is really cool and had interesting stuff to talk about yes then.
Do You...
67) Like to drive: YEPPERS
68) Get motion sickness: When on a boat
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: no
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: no, hello they are called chicken fingers you eat them with your fingers
71) Dream in color: YEAH
72) Type with your fingers on home row: dang i forgot what that is, and I should know
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: yes because I've been so sad and depressed lately and not feeling well
74) Right next to you: my stuffed animal Puggy Patch, pillows, the Buffy Musical CD, the mouse, and the wall and some music pinups
75) On the walls of your room: to the left of me now is various pinups of Linkin Park Staind, Alien Ant Farm, POD, Surgar Ray, Blink 182, behind me right now Big Blink 182 poster, Linkin Park, Then System of a Down Poster, Then below those No Doubt pinups, Then my smiley face calender. Then by the bathroom hooks with stuff on them none of which is mind. The on the closets are posters. My closet has Alien Ant Farm and Eve 6 and Cold, Then a Hook thingy then a Production This Way Makeup Hair/ Make up Wardrobe thing i stole from the Hoobstank video shoot and Then and Ultimate Fakebook poster, Then the wall to the right bulletin board of my rommies and tons of pictures all around it them my big huge bulletin board leaning against the wall with some pics.. That's about all that's on the walls
76) On your mouse pad: no mouse pad
77) Your dream car: 69 Ford Mustang, 69 Pontiac Firebird
78) Your dream date: hmm lets see with someone just going and doing whatever, got to have some music in there, but nothing really fancy
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Jamacia
80) Your dream husband/wife: don't know
81) Your bedtime: whenever
82) Under your bed: shoes and towels
83) The single most important question: When will this all be over with?
84) Your bad time of the day: soo many times through out the day
85) Your worst fear(s): dying and being alone , which looks like will happen soon
86) The weather like: not too sunny but no overcast
87) The time? 2:39 pm
88) The date? 9.29.02
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: too many, and don't want to reveal anything
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: don't know
91) Your theme song: Right now I'd have to say "Remember Me" By Hoobastank
92) The hardest thing about growing up: laundry, money, dealing with people, health
93) Your funniest experience: So Many things are amusing to me I can't remember the funniest experience
94) Your scariest moment: When a dude cut me off back home after I was done with classes and trying to get home on 291 and I swirved to the side of the road where they just put oil down, and my car kept going back and forth and then lost control of the car it spun and it the end of a cement truck and spun back across over the lanes into the medium and stopped right before my car went to the other side of 291 that was going the opposite direction and my front in was munched up and windows were busted and while i was spinning i was just saying god please don't let a car hit me, and not a car did. Thank god.
95) The silliest thing you've said: i've said many silly things, just ask my roomie.
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: nothing
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friends: nothing
98) The worst feeling in the world: being alone and feeling like shit and that everyone thinks you are a fucking joke
99) The best feeling in the world: I guess that would be feeling like someone actually cares about you and wants to listen to what you have to say and thinks you are special or are important
Still sort of on my happiness buzz from yesterday. Man I hope I can stay happy for some more days. Probably won't happen due to the fact classes stress me out to the max. Still got to redue an AD and come up with 2 more ADs. Then I have to find my favorite pop up AD for one class and type up why I like it and why it's effective. Then the major thing today is we are going to be filming at like 9 something our gravedigger montolouge for Intro To Visual Storytelling. I feel so horrible I was in charge of location and I couldn't freaking find one because I'm not from around here. My group probably so hates me now and is going to talk shit about my films now. Dude I try my best, things just never come out how I want them. I'm sure glad now that I'm not a film major. Advertising isn't much better since you kind of have to communicate with people, and I'm not a talkative person. Plus I'm never always sure of myself, that's probably because everyone else is never sure of me. Oh well, I try my best, because that's what you always should do is do the best that you can. Man my neck and side are really bugging me. I guess I should take my medicine now for those side pains. Man I haven't heard this Counting Crows song in a long time. "Round Here" awesome song. But what song to me isn't awesome. Listening to this song it sounds like a lot of my life. Yep my life is weird and messed up. Especially if you've read posts way in the past. Well now I need to go get the contacts in and change the clothes to get ready to go shoot some montologue with the boys. How come anytime I get put in groups I always get put in a group with a bunch of guys and I'm the only girl? I guess everyone just considers me one of the guys or something.
Interesting day. I had fun at the field hockey tournament, we finally broke our losing streak with a tie which was pretty good cause I am really sick of losing(i think most of the losing is my fault, hehe). And some bitch from Edison decides to back up into my friend's car while we were backing out of that parking lot. There's a big ass dent on the side of my friend's Corolla now. I'm freaked out about being in small cars now. The party was so fun, but I didn't like the movie we watched. And this whole paragraph doesn;t make sense, so i'm going to leave now
Saturday, September 28, 2002
Ok let's start from the begining. My roommate felt nauseated this morning so that i was seeing bad signs popping up. Then the weather was over cast and dreary another thing is usually a bad sign to me. The other bad sign was that we got lost on Sunset BLVD map quest told us to turn right instead of left. So we were lost for a while went up and down two times in a row. Then finally we stopped at an ARCO gas station and dude told us we were 12 miles away and needed to keep going to Fairfax. Well it was way passed Fairfax. We saw many things I never thought I'd see before, like KTLA studio, Nickoloden studio, and the CNN, and the Palladium. Man there was millions of studios we saw. Then finally we got to the Tower Records line wasn't long and it was like 10 something am. so we went over to the book shop. Didn't find anything there then looked at magazines. Didn't find anything, but the place had the largest smut magazine selection I'd ever seen. Man jack off city for people probably of all sexual preferences. Rather interesting since I'm not use to seeing a whole section of porn magazines. So Then we went back to Tower and I bought the Buffy Musical CD and No Doubt Maxium which is an interview CD, I figured I'd go buy the No Doubt thing too because I love No Doubt and I hadn't been able to find that anywhere. So then we got in the line and sat for a while then the moved the line to the dumpsters. Then we sat down again and tried studying some flash cards for our various classes, my roomies art, my spanish. I was too distracted then two friends from school came andthey got into line with us. The one was hungry so I went with her to get some subway. It was good I had a ham with cheese and lettuce. It was good. But I figured I'd get some Mountain Dew figuring it would make me act crazy enough to actually say something to Amber, instead of just looking and being in shock. So we wait in line then Joss Whedon drives and pulls into the sparking space I'm right in front of. Nice BMW and the liscense plate was awesome. Then eventually the line starts moving and I'm doing and singing weird and wacky shit to my roomie and my two new acquaintances from school. They think I'm freaking hilarious and loved my shirt that said "I've had A BAD WEEK MAY I HAVE A HUG" and then the back said which some people didn't get to see because of my backpack but it said "I'm in $40,000 debt due to Chapman University" Which they understood totally because they go there also. I swear our school likes to rape us of our money. But the closer we got the more like i felt one either I'm going to pass out, two I'm going to throw up or three I was going to die because my side pains had been starting up again. Caffenine BAD BAD BAD. We finally get into the store in the line and I'm like freaking. And Megan says she is so going to pass out when she gets up to Amber. She's freaking going insane and is going to flip. I started taking pictures. Then I guess I pissed off Michelle I forgot her last name , but she plays Dawn cause I kind of just said here. I didn't mean too but I was feeling rather not well and extremely nervous. After she signed the CD cover I shook her hand and said nice to meet you. The Joss I got him to sign my CD cover and I put out my hand and said nice to me you and he was like wow. Don't know if the wow was for my awesome hand shake, the fact i didn't give him shit for killing of my favorite character or for the blue finger nail polish i was wearing. I should of asked, but too nervous too because who was next. Bingo AMBER. I go to hand my CD cover and she already started reading my shirt and she was like aaaah She signed my CD cover and was like you sure can have a hug and i was like yeah and then i said can i get a pic with you too and she's like sure but i better get a hug first i was like yeah and my roomie was laughing when Amber was first started reading my shirt. It's all about getting attention and being memorable when you want to get noticed by someone famous. So I was dissing on my roomie cause she was having problems with the camera, while I had my arm around Amber who was bending over the table to pose for the picture. Man the smile on my face was huge. hahaha. Then I was like thanks, she said your welcome. Then she started talking to my roomie and said you must have waited a long time and my roomie was like yeah and said thanks. Then my roomie came to me and said the letter and i was like shit then i tried to get it back to her, bodyguard said you need to leave and i was like i forgot to give her this letter and then i just tossed over by her and she was signing Megan's CD cover during this and she looked over and said for me ahh sweet and she smile and blew me a kiss goodbye. Man the expression on my face must have been something. Because Megan was cracking up and so was my roomie. I should have stayed over there longer because my other friend Christina stayed and talked to her for two minutes. I wish I could have taken more pictures of Amber, especially when she blew me the kiss but I wasn't expecting that at all. Well I hope she reads my letter and maybe I'll get a response. Now that would be cool, if not oh well guess I just have to live with that. Also she was like oh cool your finger nails match your tshirt that's awesome. Too bad being the loser I am all I said was yeah and yeah and yeah and yeah and just smiled, I had like so many things to say and all but for some reason I just couldn't say anything I was so in like awe. There is more to it than that too, but I'm not going to dwell on that too much. This will probably be the only time I'll ever meet her. But it truely made up for the bad week, month, year I was having. She truly made me happy and I really appreciate it. She probably couldn't even comprehend how much it meant to me that she said as much as she said too me. Also how much blowing a kiss to me meant to me either. I was like completely happy. I guess now the past is the past and I'm going to try to start a new. Forget about past and just remember everything from that moment in time and after. I gave her the web address to this site, and if she actually made it through the letter that I know was depressing and saw the website and actually came that'd be cool. It truly was a great day for me, maybe all the pain I've been through will slowly disapear. Amber Benson is the greatest.
Friday, September 27, 2002
I find these alternative suggestions for Hallmark cards quite amusing. See what you think....
"So your daughter's a hooker, and it spoiled your day. Look at the bright side, it's really good pay!"
"My tire was thumping. I thought it was flat. When I looked at the tire. I noticed your cat. Sorry!"
"You had your bladder removed and you're on the mend. Here's a bouquet of flowers and a box of Depends."
"Heard your wife left you. How upset you must be. But don't fret about it. She moved in with me."
"Looking back over the years that we've been together, I can't help but wonder: What in the world was I thinking?"
"Congratulations on your wedding day! Too bad no one likes your wife."
"How could two people as beautiful as you have such an ugly baby?"
"I've always wanted to have someone to hold, someone to love. After having met you, I've changed my mind."
"I must admit, you brought Religion in my life. I never believed in Hell 'til I met you."
"Thanks for being a part of my life! I never knew what evil was before this!"
"Congratulations on your promotion. Before you go, would you like to take this knife out of my back? You'll probably need it again."
"Happy Birthday! You look great for your age...almost lifelike!"
"We have been friends for a very long time, what say we call it quits."
"I'm so miserable without you. It's almost like you're here."
"Congratulations on your new bundle of joy. Did you ever find out who the father was?"
"You are such a good friend that if we were on a sinking ship and there was only one life jacket....I'd miss you heaps and think of you often."
"Your friends and I wanted to do something special for your birthday-- so we're having you put to sleep."
and my very favorite one....
"When we were together, you always said you'd die for me. Now that we've broken up, I think it's time you kept your promise."
God knows i'd like to send that card to a couple people....
"So your daughter's a hooker, and it spoiled your day. Look at the bright side, it's really good pay!"
"My tire was thumping. I thought it was flat. When I looked at the tire. I noticed your cat. Sorry!"
"You had your bladder removed and you're on the mend. Here's a bouquet of flowers and a box of Depends."
"Heard your wife left you. How upset you must be. But don't fret about it. She moved in with me."
"Looking back over the years that we've been together, I can't help but wonder: What in the world was I thinking?"
"Congratulations on your wedding day! Too bad no one likes your wife."
"How could two people as beautiful as you have such an ugly baby?"
"I've always wanted to have someone to hold, someone to love. After having met you, I've changed my mind."
"I must admit, you brought Religion in my life. I never believed in Hell 'til I met you."
"Thanks for being a part of my life! I never knew what evil was before this!"
"Congratulations on your promotion. Before you go, would you like to take this knife out of my back? You'll probably need it again."
"Happy Birthday! You look great for your age...almost lifelike!"
"We have been friends for a very long time, what say we call it quits."
"I'm so miserable without you. It's almost like you're here."
"Congratulations on your new bundle of joy. Did you ever find out who the father was?"
"You are such a good friend that if we were on a sinking ship and there was only one life jacket....I'd miss you heaps and think of you often."
"Your friends and I wanted to do something special for your birthday-- so we're having you put to sleep."
and my very favorite one....
"When we were together, you always said you'd die for me. Now that we've broken up, I think it's time you kept your promise."
God knows i'd like to send that card to a couple people....
I think the name needs to be changed again. Also maybe some other things needs to be changed too. However I'd like to keep my archives. But knowing Denise they'll get deleted like lots of things on my page did last time. If I give this address out to people I don't want them seeing this name jeez. I'm planning to put this website address in the letter I'm writing to Amber. So Denise you better change it. Man I can't wait for Saturday. This is like the happiest I've been all year, because of something. Hopefully, I'll continue to be happy and nothing bad will happen on the adventure we shall call The Amber is the Color of your Energy Project. hahahaha dorky ain't it, but hey we are talking about me and my roommate who I'm dragging with me who hates Buffy the Vampire Slayer. We've had many adventures, last year was the San Jose, Going Straight on the 5 Project, which has some other meanings and an inside joke, then Hollyweird with Simon Project, Then there was Cars, Drugs and Rock N Roll the Drowning Pool Project, Then last week was The Free Extras Project. I should seriously write about each one of these events and I think I just might. Everyone would definately get a kick out of them. All I have to say is some CRAZY ASS SHIT goes down in Hollywood.
Thursday, September 26, 2002
I think I'm going to have to change the name of this blog since the person who does all the actual HTML and all stuff that I'm retarded about and can't figure out posts on here now, sometimes even more then I. If you have any suggestions for what I should Change the name of this blog to let me know.
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
My life is really fucking ruined. Everything is messed up. I have no friends, or anything. Everyone lies to me all the time. What is it? Does everyone think I'm some kind of fucking joke? I'm failing spanish, I feel like so behind in all of my classes. I have no motivation, and I really sense that I'm dying. My neck hurts all the time and there feels like there is a knot in the middle of my neck. Then my other health problems still exist. I really just don't know what to do. I wish god would just give me something to help change my life around, because as I see it now it's going to be ending soon. :'(
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
Mininum day is like the longest day of my life, I got out 12 mins later then what I told my friend, and then she drove away without me. It was a bad sign, cause later I played field hockey today and we lost 3-0 and I really sucked. Like a whore, I didn't keep my legs closed and the ball went between my legs and into the goal. Well, I better bring my running shoes tommorow then.
Monday, September 23, 2002
Friday, September 20, 2002
Ok, I just wanted to get this off my chest, before my computer fucks up again. But if Clarissa is reading this post, which is highly doubtful due to the fact she never gets online, but there is something I must say. Clarissa I love you. There I said it, and not only did I say it but I actually used your entire name and not just the first letter of your name. I really just wish you'd talk to me or something, because I just like to know some things and figure some things out.
Thursday, September 19, 2002
God, this has been a long week. Well, it's been long in terms of school, but the time has actually gone by quickly, its Friday tommorow. Do any of you ever feel like time is passing you by? I swear, days just fly by me. Kind of depressing....
Anyways, i am getting more used to my classes. I kinda like my schedule even though I have to wake up at 4:30 am to go to my zero period. I'm losing sleep everyday, its getting to the point where I really want to go to bed at 9 (at least I get to get out for lunch with my friends without worrying about being late), i'm learning to deal. I have a chem test tommorow and my Algebra 2 teacher sucks, she gives so much homework. Doesn't she understand that people have lives,other classes, and do sports?
I don't look forward to practice tommorow. Speaking of field hockey, this has been a losing week (remember that my pathetic life revolves around field hockey). Today we lost to this one team by 1-0. The ball was mostly on their side and we had like 12 short corners in our favor, but surprisingly we couldn't score. As for me, I could have probably saved the ball if i dived a little faster and let my stick out. Anyways, the game was really pathetic and I kinda cried when I got back home. The only thing I look forward to is the KIWIN'S Project on Saturday. Nothing like doing good ol' community service.
Ok. Time for bed. Yeah, i know that post was entirely pointless and uneventful.
Anyways, i am getting more used to my classes. I kinda like my schedule even though I have to wake up at 4:30 am to go to my zero period. I'm losing sleep everyday, its getting to the point where I really want to go to bed at 9 (at least I get to get out for lunch with my friends without worrying about being late), i'm learning to deal. I have a chem test tommorow and my Algebra 2 teacher sucks, she gives so much homework. Doesn't she understand that people have lives,other classes, and do sports?
I don't look forward to practice tommorow. Speaking of field hockey, this has been a losing week (remember that my pathetic life revolves around field hockey). Today we lost to this one team by 1-0. The ball was mostly on their side and we had like 12 short corners in our favor, but surprisingly we couldn't score. As for me, I could have probably saved the ball if i dived a little faster and let my stick out. Anyways, the game was really pathetic and I kinda cried when I got back home. The only thing I look forward to is the KIWIN'S Project on Saturday. Nothing like doing good ol' community service.
Ok. Time for bed. Yeah, i know that post was entirely pointless and uneventful.
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
Monday, September 09, 2002
Sunday, September 08, 2002
I'm going to talk to my RA today to move out of this hell hole I've been forced to live in, because I can't stand it. Although I know nothing will get done today being it is Sunday. I will talk to him today and I ask about a room change, because it's obviously apparent my roommate doesn't respect me or my rights. Sounds like a lot of people, now of days concerning me. Don't know why I meet the shittiest people in the world.
Saturday, September 07, 2002
Friday, September 06, 2002
I'm going to fail my spanish quiz. I'm going to get booted out of my dorm room once again this weekend. Plus I won't get a nice peaceful place to study, ugh my life is coming apart and my head is going to explode. Maybe I should just quit school go home and hide under the covers and slowly kill myself.
Thursday, September 05, 2002
Wednesday, September 04, 2002
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
Well last night or actually this morning at 12:08 PST I experienced my first real Earthquake. Man it was weird. First I thought the dudes upstairs were just being really loud and making noise then when my bed started moving, I just kind of stopped what I was doing. My roommate was like that was an earthquake and I was like ok. Then she was like Oh MY GOD, that was an earthquake. I was like that was weird. Then tons of people ran outside and were saying stuff. I was like how stupid they are there might be after shocks. It wasn't a very big earthquake but it was in Yorba Linda which is minutes away. IT was a 4.6 and I'm in Orange. Man my bed felt like a water bed for those few short moments it was pretty cool. I was pretty calm considering the fact I had never experienced one before. My roommate was more freaked out then I was and she's been through several earthquakes, because she's from San Diego. Well it was an interesting experience which I think I probably never forget. Hopefully it will not happen again, but that's life I guess.
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