Realization

tonight I found out some things that were a bit suprising, and I shouldn't have not expected, but still they hurt a bit. But then again why should I be hurt?

I don't know, but I've come to the realization while I'm stuck in my own little world, everyone else I know is out in the "real" world. So I feel like once again i'm left behind.

Everyone says to me what you are doing with helping take care of your grandma is a very noble, and a good thing. These are also people who I know if they were in my situation, or had something similar happen to them, they would not help take care of their grandparents. I hate to point out these things but I know they are true, and I'd rather people just be honest with me. Yes the truth may hurt, but not hearing it and finding it on your own is much worse.

You are probably asking what did I find out today, that has put me into this mood? Well I'm not saying cause I'm sure some of you can figure it out.

I'm just really feeling like I've done so much to get a higher education and I really don't have anything to show for it except a peice of paper that is nicely put into a cover in between to nicely covered peices of cardboard. Basically now all I got to show for anything is doing a nursing home type of job for no pay. That one damn roommate got her wish, sort of, ecept for she said she hoped I became homeless and had nothing at all. Which I'm pretty close to that except I do have a home, just not mind.