SLEEP AND RANTS

I need sleep. The semester is half over and I seriously need sleep. Midterms are over with the exception of one. My other health problems remain, along with some new added ones such as; head cold and I can't really hear well out of my right ear. How lovely. :( Oh well I'm tough I guess I could tough it out, but I seriously need the sleep. Then you add to all the stress I have dealing with someone lying for me for 2 fucking years. Then not being able to pay the billions of dollars of tuition for school and knowing my mom is having to like put out mortgages and loans on like everything. I feel as if all I do is get myself in trouble, and cause trouble for everyone else. I'm such a burden to so many people apparently.

Celebrities are prime example of people who let you know you are a burden and aren't significant at all in this world. You write them a nice later, yea I know they are busy but hey so am I. You take the time out of your busy life to write them a letter, and not like the kiss ass fans, but as a true fan who really enjoys whatever celebrity you are writing to does. You send the lovely letter in the mail and for years and months and weeks you never hear back from them. I swear they make you feel like you are meaningless and worthless and are just a waste of their time. Well you know something, if I didn't go see your movies, buy your merchandise, and support everything they do in their field they wouldn't be making the money they do now, they wouldn't be in the magazines, they wouldn't be traveling all over the world and having all the fun they are having. FANS make CELEBRITIES!!!!! SO HELLO TO ALL YOU CELEBRITIES KEEP THAT IN MIND!!! Without fans you would be stuck working as a waiter or waitress at a restaurant in good old HOLLYWOOD, that plane and simple. I'm sorry, I love a lot of famous people, and I know they are busy and so am I. My thing is not so much them write me a letter back, but to at least send like a card saying got your letter, letting me know that them or their publisist got the letter and it was opened and recieved would make me feel like they took time to at least open. Then after that it doesn't matter but just to know that it got there and someone opened it would make me feel like they actually do care about their fans.

I guess being out here in California has opened my eyes up to how so many people can treat you like an insignificant person. I mean back in Missouri yeah you get treated like crap, but you don't get treated like a freaking dollar sign every minute of every day. That seems to be the only thing that matters out here, which frankly really makes me sick. I mean money is cool, and it can get you a lot of cool things. However, if you aren't around cool people what's the point, and if you are hurting people it's really stupid. Which leads me back to celebrities. So many celebrities are like donate to this charity and blah blah blah. Yeah that's good and we should do that. But when they go and say we need to end this debt, or help these people from this country and you the American public need to pay for it well that's crap. Hey BONO of U2 how much money do you make? Probably enough to take away some of that debt. Hello you are asking people from middle class families, and I'm talking middle class as in the middle of the country who seem to be more likely to donate money whose average income is between $40,000- 20,000 a year which really isn't that much money to donate money to end a debt for a country who owes the US. I'm sorry but dude my tuition alone is 30,000 a year we only have a family income of 20,000 a year, we can't end world debt. If you celebrities want to end world debt you reach into your pockets and you end it. Oh darn that means not corvette for you, and no autographed Kiss Pinball Machine, and no decked out cadillac, oh and most importantly the decked out houses/mansions. Darn what a pitty. Can't live without a mini movie theatre in my home god forbid we not have that. I swear if you want to make a difference in this world then do without the thrills of being famous and make a difference with the money you are making and don't try mooching it out of the people who helped make you, and I'm not talking about your agents, attorneys, or publicist. I'm talking about the fans.

Sorry about my ranting on, but I just felt some things really needed to be addressed. I have about 3 more school semester left here at Chapman University in Orange, California. I figured getting some issues off my chest now would be best, before I go all mad and kick someone's ass.

Also congratulations to the Anaheim Angels on winning the World Series, finally a team that actually deserves it. I'll talk later about that. I'll be going to the parade and hopefully the ceremony tomorrow at 11 am. Look forward to seeing everyone at Edison Field tomorrow. GO ANGELS!!!