OK, sometimes no one but my friend gets it.

It's taken me a long ass time to realize that she's been through everything I have, involving family, and that she's also happened to have gone through just about everything else I ever have. We talk about it, it's creepy. I'm not going into detail. Suffice it to say that she understands where I am now regarding certain relationships and I understand her situation as well.


Sometimes it's really hard not to feel like everything is completely out of my hands. Like no amount of random chance or genetics or environment could ever make us so parallel to one another, and that it has to be something bigger than that...


I've just been thinking too often about death these days.


Anyway, I'm grateful I have someone who knows what to tell me when everyone else can only say "that must be hard"