Headaches

Lately I've been having headaches, both literally and figuratively. Now people tell me not to take things personally, but I was raised with a strong work ethic. If you are told to do something you do it. If there are rules you following them and you also help enforce them. However, at my current job rules that use to be enforce no longer are seeming to be enforced. I do not know why now they aren't, but I know if I didn't follow them I'd get a lectured, but new people don't even seem to get a slap on the wrist. It annoys me and bothers me, because I no longer trust or count on any of my supervisors. There are maybe one or two I do and I have expressed my opinions to, but now I'm not so sure I want to deal with it anymore.

I use to have fun and enjoy working. Now most times I dread it. One supervisor said to me if you aren't enjoying it anymore maybe it's time to move on, and I think he's right. One reason I stayed with the company I work for instead of jumping ship was because I liked my fellow coworkers. Now either a lot of them have quit or I rarely see them. Ever since one of the managers quit, whom I was pretty good friends with, the company seems like it's gone down hell and it's do whatever you want.

I think after next week I'm going to take a seriously needed break. I really need to spend time with my family and think about things and give me some room to breathe. I haven't visited my grandma in over a month and I think I need to make up for that. Plus I know my mom's annoyed with the fact that I haven't been up there.

If they decide they are going to fire me because I need to take a break, then so be it. There are other jobs in this world and I'm sure now that I have something that shows I've worked for a company for a lengthy amount of time I won't have as much trouble as I did before.