I can't take anymore of this shit. People cussing me out, calling me names, or telling me that I need to stay away from people for reasons beknownst to me. Why? I really don't understand. I just want to go back home to Missouri and die. Frankly I can't handle any of this anymore. People can say I need help, but I'm pretty sure I'm way passed that. I believe California has brought me more pain and missery then Missouri ever could. Maybe I've gotten to do a lot of cool stuff out here, but I've suffered more. People want me dead and gone and I'm very well aware of that. So I'd really like to make everyone happy by no longer be a burden to so many people. By not being around on this earth anymore.