I know, I know I haven't posted in a while. I'm sorry about that, but I have some good reasons. The main reason my mind really hasn't been in a place to write about anything. that might be due to the fact I had a huge bump on my back near my shoulder. Turns out I had a major infection. It had to be lanced and drained. I had packing placed in the infection area where there was a wick. Every so often the wick had to be pulled to remove some of the packing to help drain out the infection and man sometimes it really hurt. According to the nurse I apparently have a high tolerance of pain, and all the while I thought I had a low threshold for pain. Anyways so for three weeks I was in and out of the doctors office having my back checked and every day having the guaze cover the area change along with having the packing slowly removed by my mom. Also during this time couldn't wash the area so my mom had to help me wash my hair and I had to wash cloth showers so the infection didn't get wet.

Now to current time I've just been really lazy, but also I've just been really tired and I'm not really thinking straight lately. I really do think something is wrong with my health, however I really don't want to have to go back to the doctor's office. I know, I need to get off my ass and get a job so I can pack loans and then pay back my mom for all the things she has gotten me.

Anyhow I think I want to try and start off with a clean slate now, since I'm into a new chapter of my life, to sound really cheesy, of actual adulthood. Meaning needing to take resposibilty. In order to do that though I need to clear up things that have been in my mind for that happened in the past.